Oftentimes, church isn't built for people with anxiety. You see, when my anxiety began to ramp up, I had to drastically change my life in order to keep living it. Only having so many spoons (so much energy) to give and all that. Which factors in to all the things I weigh when attending church. For example, here my list of frivolous-seeming items I consider at church, not for the spiritual aspect, but for my own mental health:
I had the privilege of being part of Hannah Brencher's book launch for Come Matter Here. It's for those in a season of transition and those in a season of waiting. It's for questioning. It speaks on community and mental health and faith and being present. It's an anchor and it's wings. It's beautiful. And… Continue reading Come Matter Here by Hannah Brencher
A lady had broken her arm and the doctor had a quick-fix, something for the interim because of other health complications that prevented a complete fix. This lady no longer could lift so much as a cup of tea with that hand now, halfway helpless, but her bone slowly healed in that wrong way… Continue reading Arm surgery, anxiety, & the abnormals
"Your life gets lived while you're busy d0ing other things." --Rizzoli & Isles I'm pretty sure formulaic crime dramas aren't supposed to be inspiration for writing. But I finished Gilmore Girls and need some feel-good TV female relationships. And every so often a certain quote just hits you. I don't always make the right entrepeneurial-dreamer… Continue reading While I was doing other things, life.
I'm not sure when it happened. There's no moment I can pinpoint, no catalyst to blame. Or maybe there's too many. Did it happen when I lost my dream? When I lost my community? When I lost my future? The symptoms, the evidence piles up against me. I'm out of control. To be blunt, I've… Continue reading Today I’m Not Strong
"Hey! How do you get out of here?" "We don't. We're trapped," I wanted to say. I never intended to write this blogpost. The title, yes; the content, no. Karitos 2015 was supposed to be a lovely artistic post about all the techniques and spiritual life applications from a gathering of… Continue reading Karitos Retreat 2015
You'd think it'd be easy. I mean, everyone does it, needs it to live. It comes naturally from birth. How could I forget? *Breathe In the Gold* *Blow Out the Black* "The problem is, Amy, we think it's normal because we grew up with it all around us. But it's not." That's what my… Continue reading Re-Learning to Breathe