for the Creatives

Juggling & blogging [& yes I’m back, I’m still alive I think]

Jugglers: It’s more fun to drop the ball, right? right???

Okay, fine, that’s wishful thinking because all I can do is drop the ball. Anyone else able to only juggle one ball tops? I’m lucky to toss a ball from one hand to the other instead of across the room. Hand-eye coordination is lost on me.

And that’s how I came to drop this ball – this blog – here.

Four years. I’ve stuck to my once a week blogpost (minus vacations) for four years. That was my main ball to juggle. Sure, I’d post on social media, I’d teach a class here and there, I’d work on my story…But this blog was the one thing I was focusing on keeping in the air.

Then a few months ago, I published a book. And I couldn’t keep two things in the air, so that became my thing. Figuring the publishing world out is no small chore, even for someone who’s been in the loop on the writing world for years on end.

Now that’s over, and my main goal for the new year is to find some semblance of balance again. Or someone somewhere recently said they look for “harmony” instead of “balance”. I like that idea. So here I am, reintroducing myself to this ball I’ve dropped, and I’m ready to give it a toss again. I have great things to post about publishing, creating, achieving goals, and so much more.

One important thing I’ve learned that helps me make things happen and achieve my goals: Figure out the one ball that I’m gonna keep in the air when others fall away. Figure out my main focus for right now, and I can always switch it later.

I’ve missed this blog a lot – I’ve missed you a lot – but I remind myself that it’s okay I went away for a time to focus on my new goal, my new creation. Now here I am, reintroducing myself to this ball I’ve dropped, and I’m ready to give it a toss again. I have great post ideas about publishing, creating, achieving goals, and so much more. I’m ready to juggle *this one* again.

The gist: Really, most people can’t juggle for long. Something is gonna crash, and that’s okay.

Now it’s your turn. Catch!

for the Writers, Musings

I murdered for you & I’m not okay

in my book. I should probably clarify that.

But isn’t that a beautiful blogpost title? 😉

I finished the first draft of my quirky meta murder mystery!

Honestly, it happened so fast. I thought I’d be agonizing over the last couple scenes for days. And I just whipped them out and suddenly that was the last sentence and I felt like there should be so much more time in it, but nope, that was definitely my last sentence of the story.

Murder doesn’t take as long as you’d expect.

So I was on a celebratory high. For about 2 hours.

Then came the pits. It wasn’t the murder part. I can kill off characters okay, with maybe a teardrop if I’m super attached. It was the writing part though. Suddenly I wasn’t sure I could ever make my writing what I wanted it to be.

I was worried I would be the writer that wrote but never got good enough to publish.

Or worse, I published and everyone would hate it and I’d regret having that in my publication history.

Or worse, I published and think it’s awesome and people are too nice to tell me that I just added to the public slushpile.

I’m discouraged. Kinda terrified really.

I’m thinking of edits and beta readers and ways to put my story out there in the world for all you lovelies, and it’s like THE REAL DEAL.

So if you could send some encouragement my way, I would be so appreciative.

Now back to editing so you all can enjoy the fruits of murder 😉